I've been eyeing him since school reopens..
It's like I felt like he could replace my ex..
But now, I really think he's too good for a bitch like me..
I don't know what I'm feeling...
It's like I'm so confused..
But I don't wanna give up yet..
I don't wanna give in too..

To reach for another is to risk involvement, to expose your feelings is to expose your true self, to love is to risk not to be loved in return.

Well I'm just going to go with the flow..
He might as well be one of the wrong guys I get in order for me to get to the right one..
But somehow, I've never fought for a guy like how I do for him..
Is that a sign?
What are the signs?
What doesn't kill me, makes me stronger!!
I'm going to take the challenges Love is giving me..
Bring it on!!
I'm ready..

I pray to God, to keep him forever..
Giulietta Kaulitz

Just when you think things can't get any worse, they do. I've learned that life is like an hourglass. Sooner or later, everything hits rock bottom. All you have to do is be patient and wait for someone to turn everything back around.

I'm back blogging here again..
Tumblr didn't really express my feelings..
I'm only comfortable in letting it go here..
I tried to start a Diary..
It only stayed alive for two weeks..
I guess I prefer to type than to write..

Life had been tough..
Everything ain't easy anymore..
Whatever that matters in life are never easy..
But I've never thought it would be this hard!!
It hurts like hell..
The pain of love, the pain of life, the pain of self..
No one can say, I feel you dear..
Or I've been through it..
You may think you've been through what I'm going through..
But it is NEVER the same..
And NEVER WILL be the same..
All I can do now is to pray..
Submit myself to Allah..
I shall let him take control now..
I'm tired of being a rebel..
It's been wild enough..
I'm still trying to build up myself again..
Back from where I left off..
Back to the right path..
I was led astray by some negativity..
But I'm glad God was watching on me..
He woke me up from this bad dream..
And told me this isn't right..
Thank God..

Love until it hurts and when it hurts, love some more. Love until you don’t care about the pain, until you stop expecting anything in return, until all that matters is loving that person the best way you can. Giulietta Kaulitz

 Dear Diary,

 

Great day..
Left me speechless..
If I could be your angel..

I wanna hug you, feel you press your lips against mine..

Every time you look into my eyes, I feel like I'm falling..

Today was a fairytale..

You're my heart..

You're in my veins..

Running through my blood..

I'm so crazy over him and I can't even express it in words anymore..

 

 

fatiN

OMG!! It's been like MONTHS!!
Guess like 5-6 months of not blogging here..
i have a tumblr account..
So I've been reblogging there..
Wanna follow me?
http://ich--liebe--dich.tumblr.com
But it's not as expressive as here..
I'm free here..
Like a bird freed from its cage..

It's sad to see how things are now..
I tried to forgive but it's not enough to make it all okay..
Truth hurts, lies worse..
All I ever want is the same as all the other girl would want in her relationship..
A guy who will call just because he misses me..
A guy who will kiss me in the rain..
Who will kiss me against the wall..
A guy who thinks I am worth his time!!
Is it wrong that I want you that way?

I think I'm falling for him..
His cute smile!
wolfgang

 

 

It's so hard to hear those sweet words of LOVE..
I think it's better to be on my own..
It's not just once that I kept trying..
But, I still fail..
Maybe it's just fate..
Destiny..
Gotta be strong walking down my life..
It's been a long journey..
Cruising my life..
That's filled with question marks..
At times I was worried..
Determining my behavior..
I've got no place to go..
Only with faith in my heart..
That always makes me strong enough to go on..
I'm alone without you..
Without your LOVE at night..
With only one belief that one day the stars will shine..
Hastening into my life..
That's when happiness will surely come..
It will come..
I know it will..
For sure, it will..

wolfgang

You may not be the kind of Romeo that I've always imagined..
But Ayang♥, I must say..
You're the PERFECT MAN for me..
You're the ONLY one who knows what I need..
You're the ONLY one who understands what I'm feeling without me telling you..
You're the ONLY one who knows me BEST!
This LIFE is filled with HURT..
But with you by my side, I go on..
If we go again, all the way from the start..
I will try to change, things that killed our LOVE..
So try to trust in my LOVE again!
Because I LOVE you too much to let you go!
I'm not letting other girls have you..
Because you are MINE!!
You LOVE me now..
What else matters?
I'll hold on to you and give you the most I can..
I know you're never gonna quote poetry for me..
But, you have and will continue giving me a part of you..
I swear I will and I am MISSING YOU whenever you're NOT HERE..
In this world of BLACK & WHITE..
YOU are my colored picture..
I may be in LOVE with a HEART BREAKER..
But if it's YOU, I'll take the RISK!

There's FUCKING a lot of things that happened to me..
And I would like to apologize to ALL the people involved in these shits..
Sorry to have troubled all of you too much!
Right now, all I wanna do is to say out exactly what I feel..


I must say, I've changed..
Nonetheless, you've changed too!
In time, EVERYBODY change!
Some changes for the better, others badly..
Some changes are obvious but some are not..
Things, people, feelings, situations, EVERYTHING changes without US knowing!
I believe in that 100%..
But trust me this one last time..
This BIG change in my life is what I believe as a SECOND CHANCE..
No one else can change you, but ONLY you can..
Last night you promise me you'll change..
We gotta change for the better..
Everyone's behind us..
Since you've a bigger responsibility over me, you gotta prove it to my parents..
Remember what Ayah said?
He said you gotta take care of me..
So I hope you do it well, properly and do US proud..
I can never change this dream of you and I inside of me..
NO ONE CAN!
Duties need not erase the dream nor responsibility obscures it..
It's because the dream is within me..
You live inside of me..
I just wanna tell you..
I really LOVE YOU AYANG♥..

fatiNaruL wolfgang♥